chapter 2

Morning finally came as Irish sat at the table with John pacing behind
her. "So, the baby isn't mine?" He repeated out loud for the
eighteenth time.Irish stared off in her cup as John began to finally
explode.

"What the fuckare you doing to me?! I can't believe this. I thought
that when we got back together it was because, you missed me,Irish!"
He yelled as he knocked a chair over.

He paused as the realization hit him. "Oh my fucking goodness! It
makes perfect sense. You try to set me up to raise another guy's kid!"

Irish looked up and started to speak." No! That wasn't it. I wasn't
sure I was pregnant. I never been and we used protection-." Her voice
faded as she remembered a moment back six months ago.


.......He reached over and grabbed a condom he had out and ready,
which he found deep in his bag. He tore open the wrapper and slip it
on as he waited for her answer. Irish sat quietly before speaking.
"You need me?" She asked in disbelief. "Yes. I feel a connection with
you. Not only cause you saved me. But for the past few days we have
been holed up in your home from a blizzard. And it made us bond
faster. I knew from the first kiss." He smiled at her. Irish touched
his right hand with her left hand and grinned. "I felt the same. I
need you, too." She said as they kissed once more.


I rish reached for her stomach with her left hand as her right hand
held on the the cup of green tea as another memory surfaced on top of
the last one.


..........He pushed play and repeat on the cd player as he took off
his robe and undressed her. Irish looked up toward the CD player,
hearing the beginning chords of "Fallin' ". Reading her mind, Justin
smiled as he grabbed a condom, putting it on. I want us to make love
to this song until it becomes us and we become it." He whispered
against her lips ,before kissing them and making love with her over
and over that night. Each time, brought flashes to his mind.



"Ahhh!" Irish screamed and dropped the cupon the table as she looked
at John's face. She went up to him and held his cocoa colored face
with her reddish brown hands. "Oh,sweetie! I am so sorry. I thought we
were real careful. And we went our seperate ways." She searched his
shiny black eyes as he slowly moved her hands away from his face and
turned away from her.

She touched the muscles that were his arms, to get his attention. He
flinched under her touch. John silently walked into each room and
packed his stuff. Irish helplessly watched him slowly become her
ex-boyfriend again.

She went to take a shower and change into her work clothes. She was
finishing the last curl on her long ponytail as John packed the last
item in his car.
Irish unplugged the curling iron and set it down. She sprayed her hair
as he walked back inside. She quickly cmae out and walked to him. He
hung his head down, some of his dreadlocks loosely covering his eyes.

Irish took the keys and reached for him to hug."I am so sorry. But
know that I loved you enough to tell you as soon as I found out." He
nodded and cleared his throat. "What about the real father? Do you
love him enough to tell him?"

Irish looked away and sighed."I love him enough not to tell him. I
want him to forget me and think of his life. I can'truin his." SHe
looked back at him and caressed his face,"Or yours.I'll be okay. Take
care, John."

"Goodbye,Irish." He whispered as he left her apartment and out her
life. Irish leaned agaist the door and started to cry and shake. She
stood there until it was time for work.

SHe washed her face and grabbed her bag, heading for her car. She
loved the house in the mountains that her grandparents left her,but
she was glad to be back in her apartment. Away from the memories she
thought. She rubbed her belly,something she's be doing since it
started to grow. She didn't have the heart to ruin John's life since
she found out he wasn't the father. And she wasn't about to ruin
Justin's either.

She started her 4x4 jeep, ready to prepare to be a single mom.